Love In A Time After Pain and Hurt: Letter as to What Are The reasons Why Love can be Painful?

I found love in the wrong place at the wrong time. I lost love in the wrong way with the wrong reasons. I suspect that love is one of the biggest relationship issues that people face. we really don't know what love is, but we learn or try to learn. Sometimes it works and sometimes not.

I wish that this letter will help others: (I wrote this after my husband and I separated. It helped my understanding of relationships and the issues that they face)

"Dear James:

College sweethearts and everything in between. I think you understood the best and the worst of me, and yet you understood nothing of me. I think in the end the stress of the unknown known broke us down. Young and foolish as they say.

Married for the wrong reasons? I doubt we understood what those reasons were, or we didn't want to tell each other those reasons. I don't think that we would have married if we had known the whole truth.

There wasn't anyone quite like you, but too much loss and to much pain made us break apart. We didn't understand each other enough to communicate our pains and hurts. We fell back into the comforting "old ways." In other words anyone but the other one. why cause more pain?

Youth has its price of naive and foolish wishes. Love can be a painful reminder of things lost and broken and not reparable. Love when there is nothing to love is also painful I think we both know that. I think we forgot what we needed to be ourselves and simply went with the flow of "he knows/she knows."

It doesn't work that way, Communication is the key and we didn't have that. We had small things a general understanding of events, but not in details. I wasn't a big picture person and you weren't detail oriented. For the most part we existed, but we didn't exist together.

Four jobs and Two people do not make a relationship. Ten hours a week together don't make a lasting loving relationship. That was what it ended up being. Two people in the same room without any understanding of the other.

And Yet...

I still love you, not in the way one might imagine, I know it won;t bring us together, but it helps us love no matter what. It helps me understand that love is not a thing that will leave and return with the same person or events.

Love comes in different ways and to different people. Love, is a verb, i understand this now I doubt we as a couple understood this. I wish we did. I still wish you the best and that love, the love you deserve will come to you.

Love, As Always."

I wrote this letter thinking that love is a verb and this was my way of showing love. Really this was a complex relationship with issues that were out of our control. If we were older we might have understood this concept.

It is when people forget that love is a verb that they have trouble in a relationship, after all if you go into a marriage with the idea that it will be prefect, then you will be surprised to find that it isn't. Or is you going into a marriage expecting it to fail then that is usually what will happen. You have to work on each and every relationship.

However, love shows itself as a thing which strives to improve in a positive way. It doesn't make a difference if promises of a positive change are said-- you have to act on these changes.

Age though, doesn't have much to do with love. Commitment and Communication make love better. It can be as simple as writing a letter to the other person. Remembering little things, anniversary dates.

Talk to the other person, value the other person. Love means doing the things and being the person you need to be, not what you want to be. It means support but not unconditional support, it means respect.

Love is a verb. That's why people are in a relationship.

It also helps to understand the help you can get if you are having problems with your relationship-- you might be married for many years or living together or whatever, but there are places you can go if you are committed to changing the relationship. This also means changing yourself.

That's is the hard work of a verb. While my own relationship did not work out, I learned a lot about my own failings and fears and how to grow from that. I keep learning to build on my own goals and talents, and work with me.

This is not self-centered, but rather in an effort to know that when I find the person who will be in my life, I will be ready and able to be the person I need to be for myself and for them.